This job is making me feel like an awful sack of sick and tired human but I still want to stay with it.
Are things going to get real bad? How do I do this?!?
I work in a partial hospitalization program for kids 8-12 yes old, mostly boys. It’s a program for kids that have been kicked out of school, and they have to have a mental health diagnosis and behavior diagnosis. They’re really angry and they have every right to be. Their lives have been way harder than any human let alone small child should have to endure. but we become punching bags. After getting hit, and called every awful name you can think of we are suppose to bounce back and be the same and supportive and consistent and that’s really hard.
I don’t really have much of a support system right now and I need some encouragement so it’s been really hard and kind of lonely. I live alone and that’s not helping. I’m finding myself staying over at my parents a lot just for easy human company. I’m 26 and I’m seeing a lot of my friends married and together and I just feel like I’m waving around in the wind with no roots and nothing to tie me down.
I’m new to this job and I don’t feel so great at it but I want to stick with it because it’s challenging and I want to learn and get better at it.
But I’m so tired the past three nights I’ve gone to bed before 8 without dinner.
I really need to gather some strength, desensitize, and get my sense of humor working on overdrive because that’s the only way I’ll be able to continue.
They say really funny shit and can be so cute even when calling you an ugly crazy bitch.
One kid thinks that the chicken nuggets at McDonald’s are made of white baby meat?